Officially Missing Scotland / Beauty of Uncertainty

Yes it's true, the minute the cruiseship from Newcastle set course to Holland I started to feel sad.. It's 10 months experience, sweat, tears, joy, negative feelings and incredible pleasure I left behind, which basically can't be done overnight.
Being back in The Netherlands is weird. It even almost doesn't feel like "home" anymore. I miss the adventure, my own life, even walking down the town to the supermarket. I miss the beaches, the views, the face of every other goodlooking student of non-Scottish descent, the jogging, the cheesecake (!), the chcken-bacon salad, the feeling you get from walking through the hotel and realizing you actually work there even though it's not always (or always not) that fun.
St. Andrews, you provided me with a second home in this wicked world, one of many homes to come I hope :-)

I haven't made up my mind yet of what the next step wlll be. There's too many options, one even more exciting than the other, yet each still so unknown, and uncertain. KT Tunstall says it best on "Beauty Of Uncertainty". Seriously, I would have no trouble making my soundtrack of life!

If only I had a plan...
I enjoy writing, design, developing skills in bartending. I want to follow a course in wine-tasting (sommelier), I have gained some knowledge in whiskeys, I have experience in service for big events, experience with the needs and requests of elderly people, a demographic factor that can't be denied and an interesting development for the hospitality and care industry.
Thoughts, dreams, hopes, want...figuring out what the right path is, but what if there's more than one?

I have until June 15th to finish off dissertation work, once again a challenge but not an unrealistic one.

It's like "I'm back in my flat on the road where the cars never stop going through the night," as opposed to having a "life where I can watch the sunset." St. Andrews from a distance truly seems like a little paradise.. That when you don't count the pressure at work and one or two evil persons one couldn't possibly miss - ever.

The choices of life! I need a magic ball...

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