A Tale About Inspiration vs Aspiration

So basically, I'M NOT INSPIRED to write about a-ny-thing. At áll.
Like, what do I háve to write about?
If I'd go, like, once again kicking in a story about me and my blurry thoughts that go on and on and on in my head like 24/7..thát would be causing you guys either instant compassion, or rather a moment of "what is he talking about, get a life!", or, "thát's too much, I don't get it".

Só. First of all, compassion. I like that. A lot. Yet, it's not very functional as it would lead me to be feeling even MORE sorry for myself :-). That's never a good thing, so please call it a day, and drop it.

Second of all, to clear up the initial plausible reaction you'd have: you are right. currently don't háve a life. It is what it is, I own it, but I wouldn't entertain (although it IS entertaining) the thought of calling it a "life". A life usually contains of more than just "sleeping", "eating" and, evidently, "working". Which made me make some slight adjustments, which has lead to a progression in the direction of something more worthy of the title "life". With the end in mind, or, better, in síght, I have discovered the bitch in me. Being tired of living in "survival" mode, I'm now up for simply li-ving, and making sure this "li-ving" goes my way. After a hard day's work, I've become adjusted to the idea of having a mouth and, more importantly, using it for some unkown pleasure. Yes I'm telling the people how I like it. It's in its baby steps but it's THERE and I'm proud of it. "Yes I can!" Woohoo! Here we go. So, if you were going towards that reaction, re-consider. Please. I know where I'm at, and I know what I'm aspiring towards. Getting a life. Period.

Finally, not entirely "getting" what I'm saying, is not a crime. Actually, it is quite normal. I ramble a lot and often when I'm writing my blog I'm on a tension. I.e. I need to get it out right there and then. However, that's when I tend to say the most true and wise things. I even check back on it at times I think I've lost it. Anyways, in case you think there's something wrong with you when you read my stuff and don't have a clue, don't. It's not you. Blogging for me helps making sense of it all, and in a way, it's probably therapeutic.

It is therefore that from now on I am considering to start writing on subjects. Sticking to a pattern. Still in my usual lingo, but in a more "cohesive" way, as what causes the "not getting it" fact is the fact that I start about something while my head is already a-head wih the next thing I wanna say. So, to get things as straight as humanly possible, I, from now on, will be writing decent, out-for-the-world-to-read-worthy, understandable *stuff*, that people may better able to identify with. In plain words: it will be less frequent but leave you with more quality time spent!

On a side wing, this doesn't mean I'm abandoning the prime reason why I started this whole blog-thing, namely writing about MYSELF in this cruel little world called Scotland. I'm still here for another 7 weeks, finishing my dissertation and saying goodbye to all that have and has given me a temporary home here. The ideas I have for the future are bright as heaven and will - highly probable once again - be the aspirations behind my inspiration, ones that undoubtedly will be numerous and challenges-in-the-making.

And I thought I had no inspiration.. The English language brings a whoooole new perspective.

Love ya! A-M